Tuesday, 3 January 2017

another orbit around the sun

As always, the start of a new year calls for some reflection. So this is me trying to reflect on the year that was. But honestly, I'm having a little trouble putting thoughts into words and words onto paper. Anyhow, here's my meagre attempt in putting together something worth reading. I'm a little rusty, forgive me.

 2016 was a year of discovery, frustrations, perseverance, questioning and accomplishments. It felt like the year started and finished before I could even have my feet firmly planted on the ground.

The year started off with a trip to Japan and Hong Kong, and continued with the ups and downs of my final year at university. There were also many tests and disputes between friendships around me, through which I learned how hard it actually is to be diplomatic and patient. I also learned my limits and experienced the emotional consequences of spreading myself too thin. I definitely juggled many responsibilities and duties last year but I don't regret any of them. I loved being able to serve at church and being there for friends in times of need and being able to have the time to study God's word every Monday and Thursday night, whilst trying to stay on top of all my uni studies.

Speaking of friends, I am so grateful for all the new and old friendships that I was able to build and strengthen throughout the year. The mutual support and encouragement that I was able to witness and experience with others was unreal and something that just makes you feel all warm and fuzzy inside, you know? No matter how turbulent things got, there was always the shoulder of a friend to keep my steady.

Now that I have officially finished my studies, it has left me experiencing a Rory Gilmore moment. That moment in season 7 when she's standing in the bathroom with newly dyed pink hair and she's looking into the mirror and then the fact suddenly dawns on her that she's graduating and now she feels like she's standing on the edge of the cliff looking out into a huge, foggy abyss. I hear you girl, I totally hear you.

I am now officially an unemployed adult and there is no certainty of a job in sight. And while the thought of having to find a job plus all the added responsibilities and pressures scares me, I have learned to not think ahead of myself too much and to trust in God's timing and plan for me. Many of my friends have also reassured me that there is actually no rush in finding a full time job and that I should enjoy my break the best I can.

In one of my previous posts, I mentioned a few ambitions I had after graduation. While they still stand, I think they are proving to be more difficult to complete than anticipated. Everything just feels like loose pieces of a puzzle which makes up a bigger picture I cannot see just yet. But I know that with time and patience, all the pieces will slowly fall into place and the greater picture will become clearer to me.

I anticipate 2017 to be another year of new experiences, growth and discovery. No doubt there will be many challenges, trials and setbacks but they are never the end of the world. And if 2017 is anything like 2016, it will fly by without my noticing.

Since I usually develop some sort of mantra or goals for the new year, I thought this year will be no different. So I played with alliteration and came up with these three things:

1. Plan more: to be productive and disciplined in the things I want to do.
2. Play more: to not take life so seriously sometimes and take on more adventures and new experiences.
3. Pray more: to submit all things to God who is the only one who knows what this year will hold.

Here's to another blank canvas waiting to be filled with the new year.

"For I know the plans I have for you," declares the Lord, "plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future." - Jeremiah 29:11 

1 comment:

  1. New year is the beginning of new hopes, new happenings, new goals and revolutions also. We should celebrate new year by doing something for noble cause.